Hmmmm. Well, at the time he took the plunge he still was not thinking very rationally - something along the lines of hurry up before you change your mind - but still, it was something that had been building up for a while and if he didn't jump when she gave him a sort of 'last chance,' he wasn't going to. And he's not sorry he did. He's worried, though, that he's doing something wrong. He hasn't ever had the sort of relationship where either party is free to sort of shop around. I can't see him doing it, but he does feel that Coyote should and is both anxious and relieved when he sees that she does. He's walking a very fine line, ethereally speaking ahahaha, with rejecting love as he understands it and still caring a great deal about Coyote.

He still isn't sure that she understands - really understands - that he kills people for someone else's revenge. Killing is what he does and what he is and surely anyone who's going to call him a - whatever she calls him - should understand that. So that's another reason for all the caution. And he's frustrated that she puts herself in danger without telling anyone - he thinks it would be selfish to assume it will always be him that she goes to, but he hasn't yet met many people who can really do him damage and he thinks it's a waste that she gets hurt when he could so easily (he thinks) help to defeat her attackers. He does understand that she believes the fights are personal. He just doesn't like it. ;)

Really, I could go on for aaaaages.